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Content to Have a Part: Reflections

Things I’ve learned and things God has done this week have been absolutely amazing (and it’s not over yet!)

  • Tuesday’s praise team rehearsal wore me out in a good way. God’s presence was strong, and it was truly worship of Him. Afterward, a few of us went to eat and had some wonderful conversation as well.
  • Wednesday’s choir rehearsal was wonderfully fun and more focused, and afterward a small group of us stayed conversing about reaching out to our community, encouraging one another, worshiping some more and praying together. What happened when rehearsal ended was an answer to prayer in itself!
  • To top it off, we’ve got an extra worship team rehearsal tonight and I’m stoked that God is bringing us together yet another evening this week to exalt His name and sing His praises!

I had been feeling discouraged lately, on top of being “divinely” discontent. But on Tuesday afternoon God reminded me of some things, and the hope that this brought has made the more difficult things in my life right now easier to push through. One of the big things God spoke to me this week was:

Be okay with playing a part, then God will bring you to the part He wants you to play.
– Pat Sczebel, Leading Worship in a Small Church from WorshipGod08 Conference
(Listen here or see the list of all seminars here)

Remember Luke 16:10: He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much.

I was also inspired as he spoke about his desire to learn guitar and his determination in this. So I’ve now set a goal for myself instead of just randomly playing worship songs. I picked out 5-6 songs, and my goal is to learn these well so that I could lead worship from the guitar on these songs. There are other songs I can already play, but I need to branch out, and I’ve gotten a list down with things that will help me play just about anything after I learn them well enough. (I’ve already been playing for three months, and have been surprised that what I once gave up in my childhood is so much easier now!) I’m hoping that maybe in a small group or something, God will allow me the opportunity to try “real-time” leading some songs. It’s one thing to play by yourself, but it’s often another when it’s with others listening or joining in.

I want to keep my mindset on being faithful in what God already has me doing, in leading one of our services at church, in taking part in the worship team of the other, and preparing for whatever the future may hold… without constantly concerning myself with what the future may hold–trusting, trusting, trusting HIM! Most of all, my desire is to be faithful in whatever roles I am currently called to serve, trusting that God will equip and prepare me as He sees fit, and knowing that He holds everything in His hands!

First Step into the River

Give this command to the priests who carry the Ark of the Covenant: ‘When you reach the banks of the Jordan River, take a few steps into the river and stop there.’ Joshua 3:8 (NLT)

This has been quite a week. One of learning to step out on faith & learning to listen to the Holy Spirit, & it’s been quite an adventure!

I put in my two weeks’ notice at the library. Since mid-December, I’ve been working three jobs. In January, I found out I have to have wisdom teeth removal surgery, & thought I would have to stay with all three jobs financially, but it quickly became apparent to me that I needed to purify myself of some things.

All week I have been second guessing myself & what God was communicating to me. Looking back, I see it all clearly:

On break at work Tuesday, I opened my Bible, wanting to seek God in all this. God brought Joshua to my mind, an Old Testament chapter that I honestly had never read or thought anything of! Chapter 3 really stuck out to me, as well as the instances of the Israelites having to merely obey God to see victory, & the time that they did not where they failed. Yet when they did fail, God gave them a second chance & upon obeying Him, victory was won.

But Israel violated the instructions about the things set apart for the Lord. A man named Achan had stolen some of these dedicated things…

Joshua sent some of his men from Jericho to spy out the town of Ai… When they returned, they told Joshua, “There’s no need for all of us to go up there; it won’t take more than two or three thousand men to attack Ai…” …they were soundly defeated.

Then the Lord said to Joshua, “Do not be afraid or discouraged. Take all your fighting men and attack Ai, for I have given you the king of Ai, his people, his town, and his land.Joshua 7:1-4, 8:1

God was asking me to step out on faith & trust Him with everything. My worries told me this was risky, that even though I’d be fine financially in normal circumstances, the coming surgery costs loomed over me; despite this, my body was physically screaming as it has been for many months, & it was affecting my ability to do all that I have at this time with the little energy & time available.

In all honesty, compared to other times, I didn’t feel like God was being as clear, but yet I now see that He was as clear as necessary, teaching me to live more deeply by faith & trust in Him. While reading & reflecting on Joshua, & also through wise counsel God provided, I was still afraid to make the decision to leave that job, but also felt it was the only sensible thing to do.

I felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to put in my notice at work on Thursday evening, but didn’t because I was blinded by my worry & wasn’t for sure if it was God. Planning to give my notice on Friday afternoon, I arrived at work only to find that my supervisor had left early for the day!

But our God is so incredibly merciful & faithful, & just as God gave the Israelites a second chance at victory, He gave me a second chance: My supervisor returned briefly before close & I was able to give my notice!

God is so good! He has loved on me so much this week, been so faithful. I don’t know why I doubt as I do, when He always comes through & even provides second chances, too! Burdens have been lifted from my back, praise You, God!