Have you ever felt as if everything was going opposite the Lord’s promises? Have you felt like throwing in the towel, wondering if you’ve missed it because nothing worthwhile seems to be happening anymore?
What comes to the surface can lead to a valuable searching of our hearts. As the house of prayer where I lead worship goes through a challenging season, God has brought some motive-searching questions to mind:
Are we doing this to exalt God who is worthy of worship or to grow in number?
Will we pray and serve simply because we want His will to be done and His Son to be glorified?
How often do we search our hearts with the help of the Holy Spirit, seeking to know why we do what we do? Take the time, ask Him to shine the Light of His refining torch into your soul.
The things we do, do we do them to fulfill a need within us or because of wanting to share the love of God with others? For most of us, the answer will be both at times.
Each of us has longings. We all ache at times and seek to numb the pain through activity. We all experience emptiness that fuels what we do as we desire to be filled.
Christ wants to fill the emptiness. He wants to satisfy the ravenous wants we have as human beings. But it requires that we face the pain of not numbing ourselves.
We have to surrender the mindless actions we often undertake, such as repeatedly checking Facebook, sleeping away the day, or binge-watching the next new TV series. It requires that we cease doing things, even serving people, to try to grab onto anything to make us feel whole.
How often do we engage in activity for the sake of self over truly giving form an overflow of God’s love? At the least, we all love imperfectly. Each of us will be perfected in His love season by season as we grow in relationship with the Lord.
There is One who will never forget you, One who always sees your heart. He sees your desperation for all to be made right. He sees you when no one else seems to care for you as deeply. He sees your deepest needs and the neglect you feel day after day.
He sees everything and He never leaves. He knows you better than anyone. He fulfills your needs better than any ever could. He prays for you more than any do. He loves you better than any ever will. He sees your pain and the cry of your heart to be held, ministered to, healed and comforted. Continue reading →
Welcome! This is the first official update of my intercessory missionary endeavors and our church/house of prayer! Back in 2009, I shared some throughout my internship.
Praise in the Park
This weekend Father’s House of Prayer had our first summer worship gathering at a downtown park. Another worship team joined, compromised of members from a few other churches. It was a joy to join together.
Worshiping at Praise in the ParkThis marks our third year of Praise in the Park. I’ll never forget the time before our first gathering. At the time, my husband and I lived in a tiny apartment overlooking the place where we’d soon gather to worship Jesus.
Praying it forward
In November 2013, the Lord often led me into prayer. I felt like a watchman on the wall when I peered out our window at the Park.
At God’s leading I would pray His heart for days. I would drive to and from work in a place of travail; days off were usually spent in prayer.
God wanted His manifest presence to come to the Park and touch our town.
These times were some of the sweetest I’ve had with the Lord.
On a day of corporate prayer the following Spring, God told our leadership to bring worship out of the four walls and into the Park. By the day’s end, someone was led to donate the very amount needed for a sound system. This was a need we had not yet made known.
I then realized this was why the Lord often led me into intercession the previous fall.
After this weekend’s Praise in the Park, I needed to hear from the Lord. The multitasking required was polluting my perspective. I reminded myself that perfect details and big crowds are not as important as faithfulness and obedience.
Our part, His part
God gave told is to bring the sound of worship to the Park. It was His part to do as He promised. It’s a lesson for us all:
We must simply do our part and trust God to do His.
That evening as I prayed, God revealed His perspective to me by showing me what He was doing as we worshiped.
I saw a picture of myself looking out from the platform while leading worship. Several mourning doves were hovering in the air above all of us there. The Lord’s loving presence was coming down. The doves were almost glowing, perhaps by God’s glory.
Mourning Dove by A.K. Evans
Mourning doves remind me of simple, pure devotion to Jesus.
God sees our faithful devotion to Him, from the mundane to the miraculous. If He is in it, it matters to Him. He sees you.
The doves also symbolized the Father’s peace and love being given as gifts to us, filling the atmosphere with His presence. This is exactly what He has promised to do during Praise in the Park: He spoke three years ago that as we worshiped outside the four walls, He would release His peace and clear people’s confusion.
Last summer a vacationer pulled up searching for a place to buy a cane. Our pastor asked if he wanted God to heal him. The man was healed! He came to the platform, testified that his back was healed, and jumped off in excitement! As our pastor exclaimed, “Now that’s a healed back!” The man no longer needed a cane!
At every gathering folks have shared experiencing God’s peace.
An unexpected vendor arrived during setup. He and his wife were believers and had an enthusiastic response to worship at the Park.
A vacationing couple were sharing pictures on social media. Their church is familiar with the Harp and Bowl model of prayer and worship with music, and wanted their church to have a similar gathering outdoors where they live.
What does it mean to be a worship leader? We know it is not simply to sing songs or play music: There is so much more.
A worship leader sets themselves apart to minister to the heart of God and lead others to do the same when we gather as a Body. We serve others by pointing them to the One who gave His life for us and is worthy of our everything.
1. Pursue God above all else
The most important aspect of your life is your relationship with Jesus. The “more” that we long for in every aspect of life is found only in Him (John 17:3), for He only fulfills every longing of our hearts.
Do you set aside a regular alone time with God, cultivating a closer relationship with Him?
Do you feel connected to Him and have an increasing hunger to be with Him?
Do you give Him first place in your life and seek to live surrendered to Him?
For those whose answer is no or not really: Begin by setting aside a regular time to talk with God daily and endeavor to keep the appointment with Him. Pray Scripture-based prayers and from your heart, then journal what you sense the Lord revealing to you. You will never regret building a personal history with God.
Some helpful posts on growing your relationship with God: